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Dear Diary,

Today is the day I get expelled from my military position due to incompetence. I was able to cheat on my military placing test which enabled me to get a better position than I knew for. I was a military engineer designing military tanks with exclusive technology that could detect IEDs on the ground. I was ok at the job but not great, I was able to get by without struggling but was left questioning myself in the engineering area. I could not figure out how to design the engines of the tanks. Had they placed me in the construction there would have been little issues. But alas they put me in a position as if they knew I would struggle. While I was able to get by I confided in Speel a person I considered a friend that I was struggling slightly with work. I am not sure if he told our superiors about what I was feeling or if they interrogated him when they caught us whispering this week.

I am lucky I have not been sentenced to death for the lies and cheating I have been able to pull against the regime. While I received a mental beating until I told the truth, it was not physically awful. They did not physically abuse me but yelled and yelled until I spoke the truth. I knew there would be severe consequences if I was caught but yet still took the risk. I do not regret my choices.

I have been expelled to the mines, I do not know what I will be mining, the regime does not tell us what is down there. Once we are down there we are not allowed to discuss or let others know what is in the mines. I have heard it is dark and there is very little light, you are not fed as well and you are expected to work fifteen-hour days. I am very claustrophobic which makes me extremely nervous as I am afraid I will not be able to handle the closeness of the mines.

I have also suffered the repercussions of my actions from the family. I have not heard from them in days since my actions have been found out. They are no longer allowed to talk to or associate with me. I am all alone now, most people from the mines who end up there are in similar situations. They have been found out by the regime for a lie and are sent to work in the mines. They are suffering from loneliness and have to rely on one another for the company because their families are too ashamed to talk to them.

I also now will never be able to start my own family. Due to the disgrace that I have brought upon society, I am not allowed to start a family. I will be forced to live the rest of my life alone and not bring new people into this world due to the disgrace I have caused. The regime believes that if I were to marry and bring children in they would cause the same disgrace. Jabba only wants pure, behaving people to breed children because it furthers the society to function as it does now.

While I cannot reveal my true identity for fear that if this journal is ever found I would be sentenced to death. I am relieved I do not have to fake my smarts anymore but I am sad I have lost everything that I had. I am not sure I will ever be the same but I have no choice because of my actions.

Till we talk again,

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